Wednesday, July 27, 2011

....I want out

Hi:
Have you ever wanted to change places with a person just to feel better even just for a minute...? Well I do always do.. I Want everything to go away I wanna feel better! I want everything to stop.. This is me ranting and raving tonight but I don't care. I feel uncomfortable in my skin most of the time I wanna to "rip" it off not everything is easy but.. ;/.. Have you ever felt sooo low you would DO ANYTHING to feel better..? Yes don't we all.. It seems like more and more people are feeling this way.. We can change it by our attitudes love and care people do care! Don't let anyone or even your self bring you down not everything ia going to be great all the time! Little advice if you feel like cutting, snap your self with a rubber band instead or paint your toe nails you won't get anywhere except feeling guilty for doing it. Well I do anyway. Scared of gain weight is my game. Fighting my weight all my life! Not skinny enough pretty enough GOOD enough.. Why do we have to have these feelings they goig through everyone's head! Getting I'm to digital drama here's what you can do if on Facebook block the person, texting block the phone # or change yours.. Don't let them bring you down yeah bullying hurts TRUST me.. I've been through it all.. But always remember love is louder than the pressure to be perfect!
*Kate

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

"silence is such a great source of strength..."

Dear who ever is reading this;

Learned alot in the last few months. Gonna tell 5 things I've learned.
1) You can only change your self even know how hard it might be. Your parent,relitive,conusler,sibling,friend..or who ever you can talk to, can only say stuff to HELP but can't tottaly change you with out you putting in a little effort
2) You can change the bad voices in your head by putting food ones in there instead.. For example instead of saying your ugly or fat every morning..tell your self you are beautiful the way you are & you AREN'T fat, or if you're thinking about cutting try to say I DONT WANNA CUT IM NOT BEING HEALTHY THIS WAY.
3) If you are having thoughts about killing your self talk to an adult not your friends because put yourself in their shoes and had to worry about that.. how would you feel.?
4) ITS OKAY TO ASK FOR HELP!!  This is the most important thing i think ive learned in the last feewww years.
5)  Everyone has a purpose in life just wait for it and it will come... PROMISING this to anyone even if you think there is no getting through tough times. Bad times come and go but the sun will come out again. KEEP YOU HEAD HELD HIGH EVEN IF YOUR GOING TO BURST OUT CRYING :')
The best way to help someone is to tell a story,so im going to tell you a story.
One day this summer I hurt people emotionally by saying i was going to cause harm to myself,and well it turned into this huge thing my friend crying, getting into a fight(not physical) i was hurt to and they didn't even know  but the moral to the story is i stayed strong though that whole thing NO matter how bad things get you gotta keep hope that things will get better thats what i did and to tell the truth they did.. i think it got me closer with them(sounds bad) but it did..or it feels like it and it makes u realize how important people can mean to you 
I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS YOU GUYS ARE WHAT KEEPS MY FEET ON THE GROUND & YOU GUYS MEAN SOO MUCH TO MEE<3
_someone who's trying_
Kate
PS KEEP YOUR HEAD HELD HIGH EEVEN IF YOU HURT.